Sorry to keep the 4 (are we up to 5?) loyal readers in suspense.
I feel like the last few weeks have been a whirlwind of suck and blow. And not in a good way…in the least.
My mamaw passed away 2 weeks ago. It was sort of unexpected. By that I mean, we knew something was going on. She wasn’t eating….she was losing weight. And that spunky Italian fire just wasn’t in her eyes. So…we knew something was up. Just didn’t know what. Turns out it was cancer. In her lungs (3 of the 4 nodes of her lungs) and her esophagus. We found out on a Tuesday. She passed on Thursday. So…the cause and the quickness were the unexpected parts. It really kind of sucks. I have no grandparents left on my dad’s side. The only upside was a trip to the family farm in KY.
The weird thing (well, not weird if you know my history) is that I knew the day it was going to happen. The day my mamaw passed, this was the sky that greeted me as I drove to work.
Work has been supremely busy, too. And I don’t mind…honestly. I kinda wish there were a few more hours in the day so I could get the things done I need to. It’s a strange shift for me. The busy-ness and so-called ‘stress’ of the job aren’t affecting me like they have other places I’ve worked. Perhaps I’m still in the honeymoon phase. I’ve been here nearly 6 months and show no signs of regretting even the least little bit of the choice to come here. Especially when I talk to people that are still at the old place. I am fully confident that I got out at the right time.
So…the following pic is the title of the post. This is me….Happily Exhausted. I took this last night. After 1 full hour of Hapkido followed by 1 full hour of kick-boxing. I do that 3 times a week. Yes…I double up like that on all three days. The instructors think I’m a little nuts. Well…they say that they ‘admire my dedication and committment’…translation: “dude, you’re crazy for doubling up on these.” And I might be. But I look at it this way, both sessions have greatly different focuses…there are some overlaps, sure, but the main thing is one is meant to help me develop inner balance and sense of self and the other is meant to help me get my body in ‘This is Sparta’ shape.
And I feel like it’s getting there. I’m getting more toned. My legs are friggin’ ripped. And I’m getting more definition in my arms and shoulders. Now I just gotta get that ‘core’ in shape…and work on my flexibility.